Monday, August 31, 2009

Relapses are made of this…

Anyone with ME knows that relapses are a fact of life. I should have seen it coming, the gradual increase of fuzziness in my head a warning sign, but optimism always wins and two weeks of feeling better (if not exactly ‘normal’) had led me astray.

Yesterday began almost as usual, except for feeling tired as I unzipped the mosquito net. The dizziness began unperceived, until at a certain moment I felt as if I’d tried walking around wearing a pair of half-inch thick glasses belonging to a myopic friend. From there I began to wonder if I’d been practicing my whirling dervish act for too long, and after a short phone call at around 10 am I had to give in and lie down.

I call these “lost days” – the days when I remain horizontal the whole day. If I’m lucky I can read a little. Mostly I sleep until the feeling of two bottles of wine too many along with a blow to the back of the head with a blunt instrument has begun to wear off, leaving me with a simple headache and low-grade fever.


Leslie said...

Oh Nicky, I hope you are feeling better soon.

I certainly don't have any idea what M.E. feels like (and I'm so sorry you do), but as a migraine sufferer I can understand the part where you lose a whole day (or more) because you're unable to do anything except lie down. It's such a waste.

I'm sending you best thoughts, and also some virtual sparkly fairy dust to bring improved health overall. Use as much as you need!


Ka Ea Lim said...

Hope you feel better soon, Nicky.

Is there nothing you can take or do to provide you some temporary relief?

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